To My Family and Friends
For those of you who have followed my writings from back in the day when I wrote for “Vegas Sports & Gaming”, to the ones of you that followed my columns and blogs on ‘Health & Fitness’, Politics, Sports, and other topics, may I offer a word of warning, or shall I say “reader beware”:…This blog is written for personal and not professional reasons. A very personal side of me will be revealed, discussing an ordeal that occurred in my life between July 12th thru October 2nd, and which I am still dealing with the after-effects and consequences of which it caused. To some of you this may come as a shock, and unfortunately, for some of you involved in my life since July 12th, it already has.
As for myself, it has more than shocked me, it has embarrassed me to the point of feeling downright disgraced. I am downright ashamed at how the events of the past three months have hurt my family and some of my very close and long-time friends. I am not here to make excuses, thats not who I am nor what I am about. For those of you who know me, you all know that I’ve been around in life, and I’m not a big advocate of people using “excuses” for their behavior. Most excuses to me are worth about as much as someone trying to sell me ocean front property in Missouri, and last time I checked, the ‘Show Me” State doesn’t border the Atlantic or Pacific.(then again, some idiots out there probably confuse the Mighty Mississippi River as an ocean, lol.)
What I do offer are explanations, or perhaps put another way, I believe friends owe it to friends to explain and/or apologize for bad behavior. And I believe my friends should at the very least read this blog explaining what I have found out about the past three months. I have been to the hospital a few times and to doctors several times. PLEASE READ THE NEXT PARAGRAPH VERY CLOSELY AND THEN I WILL PROCEED.
I’VE BEEN INFORMED BY MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS THAT I AM SUFFERING FROM SOMETHING CALLED TRANSIENT MEMORY LOSS. IN LAYMENS TERMS, SINCE JULY 12TH I’VE BEEN SUFFERING FROM THIS TYPE OF [SHORT-TERM (HOPEFULLY)] AMNESIA!!! I HAVE BEEN TO HOSPITALS SEVERAL TIMES AND SPECIALISTS, AND I RETURN TO THE HOSPITAL TOMORROW FOR MORE TESTS OVER THE NEXT SEVERAL DAYS. AS I WRITE THIS ON OCTOBER 26TH, 2011, I HAVE ABOUT 20% RECALL OF MY LIFE SINCE JULY 12TH. SIMPLY PUT, 80% OF MY LIFE SINCE JULY 12TH IS A COMPLETE BLANK.
So I hope you all can see my delimma. I want to do the right things in life, I always have. I apologize with all my heart and soul to each and everyone of you that I have hurt, let down, or crossed in any way!!! But, HOW DOES ONE MAKE AMENDS AND/OR MAKE RIGHT A WRONG WHEN THE AMNESIA PREVENTS YOU FROM KNOWING WHAT THE WRONGS WERE??? YOU ALL DESERVE ANSWERS, AND AS FOR ME, I NEED THOSE ANSWERS. MY LIFE HAS BECOME A LIVING NIGHTMARE, LIKE A BAD DREAM THAT YOU CAN’T WAKE UP FROM, AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I’M SCARED. I AM REALLY SCARED.
The good news is that I am a fighter, and I be damned if I am giving up until I get the answers. I will make things right to all of you, and get my life back!!!
I would appreciate if each of you will keep all this confidential. It’s already embarrassing enough, the 20% of what I do remember. Plus, there are cruel people out there who if they found out of my amnesia, could use it against me and tell me lies which would only confuse me more. (I PERSONALLY AM KEEPING ALL OF YOU THAT I AM SENDING THIS TO CONFIDENTIAL. I AM NOT MENTIONING ANY OF YOU ALL BY NAME TO ANYONE.)
That’s about all I have for now, but I’ll be in touch. Please feel free to contact me, not that any of you owe me anything, but a word of encouragement or just to say hi would mean a lot. And according to the Doctors, it could even help me regain some of my lost memory. You can contact me by phone or text at 803-372-9886; or by email at email@example.com or by email at firstname.lastname@example.org. Also by facebook, but if you send message that way send a personal message if you don’t mind, not on the wall where everyone can see. Thank you all very much and my deepest apologies to each of you. Sincerely, Darryl Hinson.